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Just coming from hospital.. Visited mba Yuni’s baby..
Ya Allaaaaaah…that baby is ssssoooooooo small and tiny…
Lucuuuuuuuuuu….
Kpengen nge gendong…
Tapi takut itu anak jatoooooooh…aiiiiiii…boneka hidup!!

It is so sad when I want to leave some people whom I just met, and I realize that you are the ones, the true friends that I don’t recognize during the time we spend altogether.

I love you guys all already, and I have to leave you all for one thing that I can’t describe. For the reason of knowing self more is not too appropriate and logic. Yeah, just I have said at that time, I don’t know what I want. And I need time to think..and I don’t want to be depend on anybody but me.

Dependent..yes, I am so dependent on others, especially my bestfriends till I can’t be myself.Almost all decisions regarding on my “life” made by my friends for me, till I don’t know exactly what I want..I didn’t blame my friends for that. That’s what friends are for. To be in need altogether. It is just left no room for me because of that dependency.

You guys are not the reason I leave the liqo’. It just a matter of me and ambigueness and unanswered on “something”. Glad to know you as friends, even sisters to me. By deciding not joining our liqo again,doesn’t mean our silaturrahim is ended. I still want to be your friend, and want to hang out altogether, only not in the liqo’form.

Love you all…

I am so thank to the Lord for sending me the best people as His spirit representatives, “The Merciful”, “The Caring”, and “The Loving” through the eyes of my friends, my sisters, my flesh-and-blood.
We use to get stucked, startled by problems which come from ourselves, and took less lesson from the experience. Some people could take lots of lesson, and some are not.
I am the one who learned less form my experience, but at least, I’m trying to dig the bright side of the experiences…I tend to see the problem too serious and think that I am the poorest person in the world.
I’m to focus on my problem, too selfish; too startle on me…all is about me and myself. Seeing less on others’ problems, seeing and learning less from “the environment” around me.
Yesterday, I’ve just realized, that how selfish I am, ignore my truly best friend who is so kind to me, never complaint on me who always bother her with my complaints and constraints about life. I asking about her condition less, does she facing problems too or not…
I just realized when I asked her yesterday (before that, I’m talking about me, myself and I as usual), that how heavy her job, how many things which must be completed, how busy her on changing other people’s works who leaved the workplace she work for because of finding another job or got sick..
But you know what, she never complaint for that. She just said with joke, “My friend, who was accepted as Civil Servant leaved many pending jobs to do, moreover my other friend in Marketing Department is going to leave soon, too. My suffering is complete now…I’m going to die soon…hahaha…”
And after that, she still encouraged me not too think too serious on my problem, her words which reminds me till now was, “I pray for you to learn the best from your best experiences, I don’t pray for you to get the best as change for all the miseries you faced because I believe that God always gives the best for you, sis..God wants you to learn and trust you that you can go through all these miseries.”
I owe much from her kindness in encouraging me, introducing me to the “world” (including finding me a soul mate, hahahaha), and now (just realized), I owe her from the positive thoughts she gave and the toughness she had in facing life. She taught me on how to “do more and complaint less”.